The White Artic Owl
Shepherds the spirits of the dead to the afterworld.
by Timothy Wilkie
Songs of the Ragman…
It wasn’t the rain it was the wind and the low hanging clouds. It was
impossible to tell up from down. My instruments were useless, and the radio
was out. I had lost the beacon about ten
minutes earlier and the wind buffeted my tiny craft and threw itself
against the glass with much menace. Snow scooped up like hands and stole my
horizon. It felt like I had been wrestling with the craft for hours and my
arms and shoulders ached. As I looked out the windshield the world of white
was everywhere and as I flew in and out of the sunlight, I
was aware of the fact that this was a world of
hunters, and stone-cold killers. If you lived in this wasteland, you were
either on the run or you were an Inuit Indian born and bred to kill their
survival depended on it. These were the people of the ice.
Suddenly the sky dropped, and I disappeared into the clouds. Like smoke, it
hung all around me. It was obvious I needed to set my plane down. The
problem was that I had left civilization behind except for
the mine and that was still a good hour away
across the ice.
Dark and cold the clouds hid everything. Contrary to common belief ice is
not flat. I flew over a herd of elk making their way north barely missing
them as my wheels touched down. With the low ceiling they had just appeared
out of nowhere.
I exhaled. I had been holding it in as I missed them by only a hair and
suddenly right there in front of me was a mound of ice. I tried to lift
again, and I felt my landing gear snap as my plane went end over end,
repeatedly snapping both my wings off. I was up and down and then my head
hit something and I blacked out.
A cinerous shrew was the first thing I saw when I opened my eyes, it was
pretty much under my nose. The wind roared like a hungry polar bear, and I
treaded lightly on the ice as I pulled myself out and weighed the damage to
my plane. What plane? I thought. There was nothing left but junk. “What a
fucking mess,” I whispered to myself.
“Pray prayers so strong that not one word can fail.” This was a line from a
poem I read in college by Helen Hunt Jackson. It seemed so fitting. The
snow was a shredded bridal veil across the ice.
But wait in the distance there were what appeared to be a shrouded funeral
pyre. The Inuit wrapped their dead in skins and then burned them on the
ice. They were hunters and if they wanted to, they could
gut me in an instant and leave me. No one would
ever find my frozen corpse. In between there was a glimmer of the deep
meaning I would have to be careful because apparently there was open water
between them and me.
It was just getting dark, and the crunch of ice and snow underfoot was like
thunder. One look at my radio and it was clear it was toast. Every bush
pilot knew there was a time when the day could come.
As I got close to the break in the ice, I could see it was a big black
swirling cavity of death with no way across. It went as far as I could see
in both directions. On the other side I could hear the Inuit squaws
singing. “Who, ha, ha. Who, ha, ha. The very breath of life sang.
“The white artic owl
Who,ha,ha!
Slowly stroking by
Who,ha ha!
I want to end me
Who,ha,ha!
It's my time to die.”
The funeral pyre burned high and from where I stood, I could only see
silhouettes of the mourners and I wasn’t sure if they saw me at all.
As I walked along the riff trying to find a place to cross, I met many
traveling companions. The head of a dog half buried in the snow and a small
tent ring on a ridge crest. The bones of a bird circled by a ring of
stones. “Witchcraft!” I whispered to myself.
I looked around but the world was everywhere as I walked into the last
sunset. The darkness was ladened with stars and I thought what if they
weren’t pricks of light but openings to heaven. Millions of candles burning
in windows across the sky welcoming me home.
The ice glittered fragile like fine crystal easily broken and sharp to the
touch. I was already waiting, no, longing for the return of the sun. The
darkness was terrifying on the ice. You couldn’t see the cracks or openings
and the nights were so long that even the dead grew restless, and you saw
things that could never be.
She invited me in and showed me her lighter side and I fell in love. A
garden of ice and for many years she told me I was welcome and then she
took everything from me. That was what life in Alaska was. But still she
wasn’t satisfied, she wanted my soul.
I walked to my grave until my legs and hands had no feeling in them. That
was what walking on the ice was. The old timers said it was like walking to
your grave except you never got there you froze to death first and then the
ice kept you forever.
I thought of both the woman and the child. I was the woman and the child
who hated and loved my mother. I was always ashamed of her, and I was
determined I would never be like
her. I refused to lie down and let some man walk all over me. But like the
unborn child in my womb, I craved life.
Suddenly there he was across the huge gap in the ice. It was the man that
had been burning in his coat of fire. Out of the night flew the white artic
owl with all his wisdom. “You are dying,” it said to me. “You are wandering
aimlessly. You must pull yourself together.” But still the man burned in
his coat of fire. His white skin flaked off as ash with his eyes charred
and blackened, he tried to speak but it only came out as a stream of white
feathers.
A howling suddenly came out of the darkness and the grinding sound of teeth
on bone. A new wind arose, and I caught the scent of onions, chives, and
scattered grasses. It was all the smells of spring. The lights were on in
the slaughterhouse and the pigs were squealing. The flesh slid off as the
flies arrived. I longed for the sun, but I couldn’t even see the clouds.
This was the second day of darkness, and I was blind.
The chanting returned.
“Who, ha, ha! Who, ha, ha!
A bird egg found in winter
Who, ha, ha!
Mask of eyes left to see
Who,ha, ha!
Loved ones crossed over
Who,ha, ha!
Return to me.”
I listened and when they stopped, I cried out. “Help me!” But no one came
because the figures I had seen were just frozen mist coming off the ice. I
had become bewitched. I looked back at the way I had come, and I couldn’t
see the funeral pyre anymore. I was truly lost and not even God could find
me. Lost in plain view on thousands of miles of ice. The artic owl spoke to
me again. “Death will come quickly, and your grave will not be deep.”
Terrified, I thought where will I carry the dead?
“In your heart,” he said.
“There is food on the table,” my mother announced. There was always food on
our table growing up; we never went hungry. It wasn’t fancy. We were poor,
but it was good food. My mother would slave over it on the holidays, and no
one ever left the table hungry. It was not an easy job, there were six kids
in our family. Perhaps I had judged my mother too harshly.
I dropped to my knees and scooped up some snow in my hands and let it melt
so I could drink it. It tasted like grieving wine, but it did the job and
for that I was thankful. What were these drops frozen on my cheeks? Were
they tears of hope or tears of defeat? For the wise old artic owl had
promised me my death would be quick.
Holding my belly was the only way I could comfort my baby. “Once a dream
did weave a shade over your angel guarded bed,” I sobbed. It was the one
line of a William Blake poem I remembered as a child. My mother had always
read it to me when I was frightened. She always seemed to be there when us
children were frightened. I was so scared and then she was there standing
over me. Demanding I get out of the fetal position on the ice and stand up.
“Mother I’m so tired and it is peaceful here let me sleep.” I begged.
She looked upon me and smiled. Slowly she turned
and pointed back the way I had come. The chants started again as I stumbled
to my feet.
“Who, ha, ha!
The fur will keep you warm
“Who, ha, ha!
Until the summer thaw
“Who,ha, ha!
And all the snow is gone.
Who, ha, ha!
All come near and hear my song.
Who,ha,ha! Who,ha, ha! Who, ha, ha!
As I made my way slowly back across the ice, I came across an old Innuit
woman wrapped in a fur her body mummified by the ice. I
knelt down and prayed over her thanking her for
the gift of her fur as I slipped it off her body. It was an ancient custom
also practiced by the people of wrapping the dead in fur and setting their
bodies adrift on the ice. This woman had been a gift given to me by the
spirits. I knew this because it was a practice that was seldom used
anymore. There was no doubt in my mind that she had been the one that had
captured the spirit of the bird within the ring of stone. She had captured
the white artic owl, and I had set it free.
When I looked up, I saw the lit torches coming towards me across the ice.
It was an Inuit hunting party and suddenly they were all around me and
welcomed me with open arms. Safely within the warmth of the people they
took me home.
THE END
© 2024 Timothy Wilkie
Bio: Timothy Wilkie is a local hero in the Hudson Valley.
From his music to his art and storytelling. He's an old hippy and a
storyteller in the truest sense of the word. He has two grown sons and
loves to spend time with them. His writing credits include Aphelion,
Horror-zine, Dark Dossier and many more...
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